Thursday, April 06, 2006

Mopey, Pissy, Pity Party

These are just some of the words that people have used to describe me lately. Well, not lately, but before the surgery, before I took my LOA from going out. I tried to just let it roll off my back at first, but now I realize just how much it hurts.

Mopey-I suppose maybe I was mopey. But if you were living with a chronic disease that causes you pain and discomfort, every single day, in one way or another you would be mopey, too. I know I don't have cancer, I know that what I have isn't going to kill me, but I don't need people to tell me how much worse it could be. For me, it's bad, it sucks. And if you don't know what it's like, you have absolutely no right to tell me how I should accept it, act, etc.

Pissy-Just because I don't have a smile plastered on my face does not mean that I am pissy. And for that to be the first thing someone says when they see me? WTH? If I see someone looking maybe not-so-happy, I sure as hell wouldn't approach them like that. I am pretty sure I would ask if everything was okay, if there was anything I could do if everything WASN'T okay. But I guess that's just me.

Pity Party-Aren't we all entightled to one every now and then? It's amazed me lately how unEMPATHETIC people can be. Again, if I thought that someone was throwing themselves a pity party, I wouldn't put them down for it. Again, I would ask if there was anything I could do to help, whether it be just to listen, or just to wipe the tears from their eyes.

The next few months have the potential to be less than enjoyable. I started the Lupron Depot injections Monday. No turning back now.

I am sure some of you are sick of hearing about endometriosis, but it is a huge part of my life, it affects me EVERY SINGLE day. So if you don't want to hear about it, you should probably stay away from this blog...


Heather said...

#1 ~ YAY! An Update! I was starting to worry! ;)

#2 ~ You shouldn't have to hide your feelings from anyone. They are your feelings and they are valid. If you feel mopey, be mopey. If you feel pissy, be pissy. You will get past it eventually and so will everyone else.

#3 ~ we all have the right to a pity party every now and then. It's when we let the pity take over everything else that it becomes an issue. And I don't see you taking it to that extreme at all.

#4 ~ I hope that you start to feel better and see some relief. You deserve it.

LYMI... hang in there :)

tinyhands said...
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NicoleC said...

^ Guess it's time to turn the damn word verification back on. Ugh.

tinyhands said...

That wasn't comment-spam.

J. said...

For the record, women who have had endo and survived cancer have said that the pain from endo is far worse than anything they experienced from cancer. The problem is, endo isn't a well known disease.