35th birthday suckfest.

That's all there is to it.

My dad and step momster met me the Sunday before at Armadillo Palace, one of my favorite places, so that was nice. My dad's birthday is two days after mine, so we usually meet for lunch or dinner the week of to celebrate and exchange gifts.

That Monday I worked and went to the gym, so nothing special there. Tuesday, the 7th, was my birthday. I brought my lunch because it was a little presumptuous to assume my boss would be taking me to eat since it hadn't been mentioned before. I turned down a couple of offers for dinner because I signed up for boot camp and was going to follow through with that commitment, no matter what else came up. I got to boot camp at 6:00, but we weren't scheduled to start until 6:15. I sat there until 6:20 waiting. No one else ever showed up. I was LIVID. Turns out they had combined the beginners class with the regular, but no one had informed me of this. I ended up leaving there and going to the gym which I guess was better than nothing. I had hummus, pita chips and carrots for dinner. Big time birthday dinner, huh?

My mom and I had plans to go to dinner Wednesday but she canceled on me. Typical. I still haven't gotten so much as a card from her. Isn't that nice? I hadn't brought gym clothes with me so I ended up treating myself to a manicure and a pedicure. I've decided that since I don't have anyone to buy the things I want as gifts, then I will just buy them myself. Hence the BEAUTIFUL Coach purse and matching Platinum Keurig.

This was my first birthday without my grandma. Her card was the one card I could count on to be in my mailbox the day before my birthday, and I never realized just how much I looked forward to that card until I didn't get it. I don't think I got a single birthday card in the mail, come to think of it. I'm usually okay being single, but when birthdays and holidays roll around, it sucks. I want that one person in my life that would make those days special.

Four years.

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Drinking wine and thinking bliss, is on the other side of this
I just need a compass and a willing accomplice
All my doubts that fill my head are skidding up and down again
Up and down and round again, down and up and down again

Oh, I've had my chances and I've taken them all
Just to end up right back here on the floor
To end up right back here in on the floor

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell
But I'm not scared at all...hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm

The cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the Crystal Ball

Sometimes you think everything is wrapped inside a diamond ring
Love just needs a witness and a little forgiveness
And a halo of patience and a less sporadic pace and

I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes

Oh I've felt that fire and I've been burned
But I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned
I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell
But I'm not scared at all...hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm

Of the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball

Irony, irony, this hate and love, hate and love
What it does to me, what it's done to me
What is done...done

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel
Broken mirrors and a black cats cold stare
Walk under ladders on my way to hell, I'll meet you there

But I'm not scared at all, hmm...I'm not scared at all.

And this is why she is my BFF.

This is the email I got from my BFF (of almost 22 years!) this morning:
Hey Honey,
Tomorrow is the BIG or littler day depending on how you look at it. ;) Is there anything I can do, other than pray of course? Do you have preop today? I wanted to call you all weekend but things have just been crazy with the beginning of school! I also realized that not only do J and B have meet the teacher tomorrow but Owen has parent orientation at 5:30 tomorrow night. I can probably leave after orientation and come to see you but it will be after 6:30. I am just so excited for you but wanting to be with you and help you anyway I can. Do I need to stay with you after your Dad leaves? I will call you later, just know that I love you so much and can't wait for this exciting chapter in your life.
Love you!
Denise

She is the ONE person (in the United States-shout out to Irenda!) that offered to help me out with the dogs. Keep in mind she has a husband, four young children, a dog of her own and one of the most demanding jobs of anyone I know. She has been nothing but supportive and excited for me as I make this change. I hope she knows just how much I love her and appreciate having her as my BFFEEEE.