Friday, April 25, 2008

I'm not gonna lie

I'm nervous as hell.

I have my gastro appointment next week. Well, I also got news a couple of weeks ago that my pap came back "abnormal". I did a round of the most awful antibiotic treatment imaginable and return for another pap next Thursday. I went through this in 1998 and was diagnosed with cervical dysplasia and had LEEP. All of my paps since then have been fine, so you can imagine my surprise when I got that call from the nurse. I've been trying really hard not to freak out, to just take it as it comes. But it's hard. Really hard. Especially with all of the pain and "weirdness" I've been feeling lately.

So, if you'd send a couple up for me, I'd really appreciate it. I'm sure it's all nothing, but it's hard to not get too deep in my head sometimes-I'm alone an awful lot, ya know!


suzy said...

I'm praying for you Nicole! When is your Dr. appt.?

Steph said...

is tomorrow the big day? i hope you like the gastro...

sending good thoughts your way honey

Anonymous said...

You are in my thoughts girl, I am so sorry to hear you are going through all of this. I wish I could do something to make it all better. But know I care about you and I'm thinking of you.