A little lost

So my first blog somehow disappeared, along with the address I wanted. Oh well. Seems to be my luck these days. I feel like I am attached to a bungie cord these days. My emotions are all over the place. Not sure if it's from the health issues I've been facing, because I'll be honest, it sucks. It's like, I'm okay until I sit and think about it, which I try not to do, but when I do have those few minutes in the car and am not on the phone all I can do is think. I know I can't get sucked in because I won't know for sure until I actually get married (God willing) and start trying to conceive. Anyway, I let not feeling well keep me home for almost 4 months, had surgery (which, I find out, turned out to be useless) and felt okay for a couple of weeks so I started going out again, which has been a lot of fun, but I think I've gotten a little carried away. So, I am going to have to take it down a notch and chill with Chelsea (the Dog) for a while...
So much rambling, don't really know what else to say in this thing. It'll come to me, I hope.