Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Two years.



























































10 comments:

Heather said...

((((((BIGSUPERHEATHERHUG))))))

junie b said...

i heart you big time...

Tabasco said...

Love and Hugs from afar sweetie.

The Doctor Princess said...

Do you know how much I think you rock?

That is all.

Carry on.

Steph said...

XOXOXO Love you

Layla said...

Hmmm. Big sigh and lots of hugs..

melis said...

Nic. Stop it. STOP IT. STOP. IT!!!!

Honey, I love you. Big love. Turn around and look forward for a while. It's not scary at all, and hey, guess what? We're all right next to you either way you face.

I. Love. You.

turn around...

Anonymous said...

i found your blog thru a friend of mine. i have wanted to comment before but it seems i would have TOO much to say, so i haven't. i felt compelled to comment after this blog for some reason. i lost a brother to suicide. it was the most devastating thing i have ever endured. i lost so many things when i lost him. and the range of emotions were so wild. i felt anger, guilt, loss, shattered and so many other feelings i cannot even start to explain. i don't talk about it much, even now. even typing this is hard...it will be 27 years this Christmas. i was 25 when he bailed. i can tell you that the first 8 years were the hardest. then, i began to deal with it, i suppose. perhaps i had such a hard time because i was even angry with God. i didn't have Him to lean on. To top that, I had difficulty finding anyone that could relate to my loss. I mean really relate. when i finally realized that no matter how much i sulked, threw fits, screamed cried or panicked, he was not coming back, i started dealing with the sheer loss. it hurts as bad today as it did the first day of the phone call....i just deal with it differently. He has a granddaughter that is the absolute image of him…her eyes..her hair..her smile… and I have to turn away at times when she smiles. I still well up with tears. i hope your hurt eases and your life goes forward in a way that makes your loss more bearable. I cannot image what you are going through because I think your loss was greater than mine. I pray you find peace and joy in your future. God Bless You.

NicoleC said...

Anonymous-I SO wish you hadn't decided to post anonymously. If you feel up to it, drop me an email. My email is in the link on my profile, I think.
THANK YOU for your post. I am so sorry for your loss, and I certainly don't think ANY loss from suicide is worse than another. It is a distinctly different loss than any other, in my opinion, and so few people really GET IT (FORTUNATELY!). Thank you, and I do hope you will get in touch...

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