Monday, July 14, 2008

I should have known.

I did, actually. I just should have gotten nosy sooner. Now I'm sitting here biting back tears, and it's totally ridiculous.

There's this guy, we'll call him Dr. Boy, that I've known for about three years or so. We've never been serious. We've actually been the polar opposite of serious, ifyouknowwhatimean, which is NOT me.

Turns out Dr. Boy is engaged. It's amazing what you can find out on MySpace and Facebook without really trying all that hard. I'm not even sure what made me look. I think I actually just wanted to see if HE was on either. You know, it's not so much that he's engaged, yes, it DOES bother me, but what bothers me even more is that he bold face lied to me about it just a couple of months ago.

The more I think about it, the more I realize that my feelings aren't hurt so much because of what Dr. Boy's done, but what Nick did. He lied to me, betrayed me and manipulated me for months. I'd ask if he was seeing someone else, he'd say no and turn it back on me that I was insecure because I was seeing someone else and that that's why it was in my head. I did have other relationships when Nick and I were "on the outs", but I was NEVER with anyone else, or talked to anyone else when he and I were talking or spending time together, and I was completely honest with him about it.

It's just brought up a lot of feelings I thought I was done with.

11 comments:

Cerulean Blue said...

it stings no matter what... and yeah, you prob. did know, but some small part of your sould din't want you to believe it, b/c somewhere deep down, you thought maybe it "could" mean something... that option is always there, until you find out he's getting married... doesn't that just suck? I mean glad it's not you dealing with the cheating fiance', but damn, when did that become the norm???

I don't get it... (I haven't spoken to THAT guy since September '07... that's when he told me his "good news"...)

Amalia said...

As I wrote in my own blog tonight, sometimes I wonder if intuition is more of a blessing or a curse.

If I were there I would give you a big hug and take you out for a cocktail. Instead, I hope you know I'm thinking about you.....and I think you are spectacular.

Denise said...

I am sorry girl. How ironic that we were just talking about him Friday night. I love you and am thinking about you.

Heather said...

Boys suck. Throw rocks.

Steph said...

ugh! damn him....what an ass. i hate liars. i'm sorry (((HUGS))) xoxo love you

Tabasco said...

I'm glad I'm not the only one have those "I should have known" moments with boys lately. Blah....kick his ass. Then tell his woman what an ass he is...

Tiny Frog said...

Liars are the worst.

And whats even worse than that, are those that a) lie by omission and b) they will try and turn shit back on you.

fucking idiots.

Lorri said...

I saw your post on Angie's blog. I just wanted to say that Jesus CAN heal your heart.

I see you also have a friend in cancer treatment? She is beautiful! You both might like my blog.

Wishing you all the best...Lorri

addiebaby said...

Wow.
What a douche.

angela said...

Don't ever doubt or deny yourself that you deserve the best and there's nothing wrong with holding out for the best.

elise.elaine said...

I'm so sorry lovely lady. Liars suck no doubt about it.