Honey, I love you. Big love. Turn around and look forward for a while. It's not scary at all, and hey, guess what? We're all right next to you either way you face.
i found your blog thru a friend of mine. i have wanted to comment before but it seems i would have TOO much to say, so i haven't. i felt compelled to comment after this blog for some reason. i lost a brother to suicide. it was the most devastating thing i have ever endured. i lost so many things when i lost him. and the range of emotions were so wild. i felt anger, guilt, loss, shattered and so many other feelings i cannot even start to explain. i don't talk about it much, even now. even typing this is hard...it will be 27 years this Christmas. i was 25 when he bailed. i can tell you that the first 8 years were the hardest. then, i began to deal with it, i suppose. perhaps i had such a hard time because i was even angry with God. i didn't have Him to lean on. To top that, I had difficulty finding anyone that could relate to my loss. I mean really relate. when i finally realized that no matter how much i sulked, threw fits, screamed cried or panicked, he was not coming back, i started dealing with the sheer loss. it hurts as bad today as it did the first day of the phone call....i just deal with it differently. He has a granddaughter that is the absolute image of him…her eyes..her hair..her smile… and I have to turn away at times when she smiles. I still well up with tears. i hope your hurt eases and your life goes forward in a way that makes your loss more bearable. I cannot image what you are going through because I think your loss was greater than mine. I pray you find peace and joy in your future. God Bless You.
Anonymous-I SO wish you hadn't decided to post anonymously. If you feel up to it, drop me an email. My email is in the link on my profile, I think. THANK YOU for your post. I am so sorry for your loss, and I certainly don't think ANY loss from suicide is worse than another. It is a distinctly different loss than any other, in my opinion, and so few people really GET IT (FORTUNATELY!). Thank you, and I do hope you will get in touch...
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((((((BIGSUPERHEATHERHUG))))))
i heart you big time...
Love and Hugs from afar sweetie.
Do you know how much I think you rock?
That is all.
Carry on.
XOXOXO Love you
Hmmm. Big sigh and lots of hugs..
Nic. Stop it. STOP IT. STOP. IT!!!!
Honey, I love you. Big love. Turn around and look forward for a while. It's not scary at all, and hey, guess what? We're all right next to you either way you face.
I. Love. You.
turn around...
i found your blog thru a friend of mine. i have wanted to comment before but it seems i would have TOO much to say, so i haven't. i felt compelled to comment after this blog for some reason. i lost a brother to suicide. it was the most devastating thing i have ever endured. i lost so many things when i lost him. and the range of emotions were so wild. i felt anger, guilt, loss, shattered and so many other feelings i cannot even start to explain. i don't talk about it much, even now. even typing this is hard...it will be 27 years this Christmas. i was 25 when he bailed. i can tell you that the first 8 years were the hardest. then, i began to deal with it, i suppose. perhaps i had such a hard time because i was even angry with God. i didn't have Him to lean on. To top that, I had difficulty finding anyone that could relate to my loss. I mean really relate. when i finally realized that no matter how much i sulked, threw fits, screamed cried or panicked, he was not coming back, i started dealing with the sheer loss. it hurts as bad today as it did the first day of the phone call....i just deal with it differently. He has a granddaughter that is the absolute image of him…her eyes..her hair..her smile… and I have to turn away at times when she smiles. I still well up with tears. i hope your hurt eases and your life goes forward in a way that makes your loss more bearable. I cannot image what you are going through because I think your loss was greater than mine. I pray you find peace and joy in your future. God Bless You.
Anonymous-I SO wish you hadn't decided to post anonymously. If you feel up to it, drop me an email. My email is in the link on my profile, I think.
THANK YOU for your post. I am so sorry for your loss, and I certainly don't think ANY loss from suicide is worse than another. It is a distinctly different loss than any other, in my opinion, and so few people really GET IT (FORTUNATELY!). Thank you, and I do hope you will get in touch...
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